Thursday, September 1, 2016

Time for a change



I’ll still be walking to the river and I’ll still be writing, but this marks the end of my weekly blog posts. 

I may still publish occasionally on the ‘Walk to the river’ blog and I intend to use the FB 'Walk to the river' group site to post occasional walking and river notes, as well as some photos – but I will not be posting regularly.

The digital record still exists and collections of my writing are available directly through Amazon Books and can possibly be ordered through your local bookstore.

I thank you for reading and commenting. 


And here’s one little bit of silliness:

To my wife, walking out the door 

This poem is short
this poem is short
it is not very long

I am leaving
I am leaving
I am almost gone

I shall return
I shall return
I shall come back

I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind
that I shall come home to you

Thursday, August 25, 2016

The Dusty Bookshelf - a word sketch



If you took the time to sit in a somewhat worn, blue, cloth-covered chair, surrounded closely by books like ‘Buddenbrooks’ by Thomas Mann and ‘The Heart is a Lonely Hunter by Carson McCullars, and so many other titles that I will not recount, what would be the point?

I suppose that you might consider putting yourself in my place, for that small place was indeed mine for short time on that afternoon -  although perhaps ‘occupied’ might be more accurate. A few books that I had picked off the shelves were settled on my lap and I had opened one and begun to read.

A young man, his brown hair pulled back in a short pony-tail, stepped near my right shoe which I had propped up across my knee. His face was tanned and smooth, his eyes searching for a book.

The young man carefully worked his way around me, alternately standing or bending down onto one knee and turning his head to read the some of the sideways titles on the spines in my little cove of books. After looking for a few minutes, he stepped out past several round wooden tables with their small stacks of books like the hour markings on the face of a clock. And then he was gone - out through the far front door.

It hardly matters - except that it is so – that there are two front doors into The Dusty Bookshelf in Lawrence.

And then a young woman with smooth shoulder length black hair and glasses with stylish plastic frames and a brightly colored summer dress that stopped just at her knees wandered in and out of my distractible gaze.  And there were some uncounted other wanderers, people looking, sometimes picking up a book to page through.

And from time to time from where I sat comfortably, I would hear Manda’s bright voice over my left shoulder as she conducted business from inside the central island, that U-shaped counter piled high with books yet to be processed.

I have not begun to tell you everything of my afternoon. For example, there was the sound of Manda’s boots as she strode over the hard carpeted floor among the many colored books - shelved and stacked and waiting. Or how the leaf-filtered daylight shone through the front windows and around the book faces that looked out at the street. And I did not see Dinah, the black bookstore cat, anywhere around that afternoon.

Books are not dead and that afternoon, every person that I saw was at least a generation younger than me. And on the recommendation of a reader who is a generation older than I am, I decided to go ahead and take along with me the copy of ‘Buddenbrooks’ that I had been paging through briefly. It’s about the lives of some German people – although perhaps ‘characters’ would be more accurate - who lived some time ago.

I had store credit from books I had exchanged on other afternoons.

I sit here often.

Thursday, August 18, 2016

This moment


Every moment’s step
is a moment and a step -
farther from the beginning
and closer to the end -
the knowing obvious
and still forgotten
in the moment’s step.

This game of words
goes on and on.
Step slowly.
Step lively.
Step into the moment.
Forget the words -
forget the steps -
look up.

Thursday, August 11, 2016

How could I have known?




I think that I may have slept
straight through
the changing
of the world.

I had been awake –
preoccupied –
the long night before.

Then all of this happened on the same day
following.
I saw the most beautiful
woman I had ever seen
in my life.

I had just been drinking
the most satisfying iced tea from a pint glass
in a coffee shop. She
walked in.
I saw only her for a
moment. And then
there was only ice
cubes in the bottom
of my glass.

And then later I was doing
the dishes at my kitchen sink
and I heard a song –
I was wearing headphones
and then the song in my ears was the only song
I had ever wanted to hear.

It was all too much. I laid down
and closed my eyes for just a minute
And then suddenly it was an hour later.

I stepped outside
rubbing my eyes and looking up
and then the stars came out
in a quickening darkness
for what might have been –
just perhaps –
the very last time.

Friday, August 5, 2016

Summer poetry



Chop some freshly picked tomatoes
about four or five.
Add minced garlic cloves,
about six or seven.
Dice fresh mozzarella,
about 8 ounces.
Add handfuls of freshly picked
and roughly chopped sweet basil.
Pour in some extra virgin olive oil,
whatever seems right to you.
Salt and pepper to taste,
as they say.
Mix all in a glass bowl 
and cover with plastic wrap.
Place it all in the sun for much of the afternoon.
I personally like to cook up a mess of linguine
about suppertime,
toss everything together quickly 
and eat the goodness I barely had a hand in.
If the juice trickles down your chin
and splatters on your shirt, 
you’re probably doing
something right.

Fresh crusty bread is a good idea,
if you like sopping juice.
I like real butter, too,
but then I’m living large.

The secret is the ingredients
and who you eat and drink with
and what quenches your thirst
and satisfies your appetite.

Summer starts with the sun.

Thursday, July 28, 2016

In a wild universe



Since I was awake, I decided to go get a glass of water from the refrigerator. Then I pulled on a pair of pants and I stepped outside with my cold water. The night was alive with katydids calling. The moon was an egg, tumbling just over the apartment block out across a couple of back fences. The grass under my feet was wet. Droplets too minute to see one by one were spread out over the earth. And all together they were reflecting the reflected light of the moon until the brightness nearly blotted out the stars where I was looking until I could almost count the remaining stars one by one.

Even as I turned to the darker portions of the sky, with some patience I could have almost counted the stars. Humans in these parts have illuminated the night on nearly every corner and then some. Still, sometimes even the view of the universe from my backyard is worth getting out of bed for.

I was in no hurry to be anywhere, but still too restless to stand still on the earth already spinning a thousand miles an hour beneath my feet. I stepped towards my driveway. I suspect that countless humans had grasped some of the dizzying sense of relativity in the universe well before Einstein did the math. The earth spinning and hurling around the sun every year like a bucket on string. The solar system, pulled along at astronomical speeds out along one spiral arm of The Milky Way. And Milky Way galaxy hurtling out to beyond who knows where at a little less than light speed.

And yet, in my neighborhood and with my own gaze, I am the only body not at apparent rest tonight. On my own, I am merely picking my way carefully in my bare feet along my rocky driveway down to New Hampshire Street.

At two o’clock in the morning, the traffic is not a problem. The asphalt still holds the daytime summer heat. The pavement is worn nearly smooth from the passage of countless car tires. When things get to be countless - things like cars and streetlights - the effect becomes measurable. Whether one notices these things or not, is another question. But tonight, one creature barely counts. Still, I move.

The water in my glass is still cold in my hand and the glass is beaded with some of the droplets in the sky coming near to me in the night. The water will quench one thirst. But it turns out that a drink is not why I am not back sleeping in my bed tonight.

Walking slowly up the street, the katydids call - but not to me. They are heard on all sides - but not seen. Tree branches cut black overhead against the brighter sky like a pieces of a serrated knife. Shadows crouch alongside of the houses on either side of the street. Porch lights. Solar lights. An occasional lighted window. And at the corner, a street light shines amber, brighter than the moon. The steel manhole cover in the middle of the intersection rattles a little when I step on it. I could probably read a book on this circle if the book had large print.

The moon hasn’t finished tumbling. A nearly negligible night wind wisps against my chest. I turn to find the pole star. How far beyond Central Middle School, a short earth block ahead of me now, before I would be standing dierectly underneath that north star. And if I could fly through space tonight, how long would it take me at my human pace to reach that single star, a point just barely bright enough for me to see from where I walk along New Hampshire Street. I watch my shadow grow taller and taller as I amble down the amber lighted street. I’m walking due north - by the star and by the street laid down in a grid.

A car’s headlights encourage me back onto the rougher concrete sidewalk. I pass our house. Plenty of deep shadows lurking under the canopy of trees and hiding under bushes.

And then I stop. I saw movement ahead. An animal was over there, just at the curb, twenty or thirty feet ahead of me. And then in a splash of dim light, I saw a white stripe down the center of its back. A skunk in the wild! It roamed in an urban environment, to be sure, but this skunk was as wild in its own mind as it could be.

I smelled nothing. The skunk seemed unaware of me. It skittered along nose to ground, never taking a straight line. I stood still. And then as the skunk moved away from me, I followed along from what I hoped was a safe distance. Mostly I stood watching, wondering about that skunk’s life relative to mine. The skunk gradually took its twisting and turning path farther away from me. When it started to cross 15th street, I could see the skunk pretty well by the street light there, nose down, bushy black tail up.

Then a car came speeding down the street, just missing the skunk by a few feet or so and the skunk scampered back into the bushes on my side of the street and out of my sight.

I turned and looked for the tumbling moon. If it ever stopped falling, all the king’s horses and all of the king’s men couldn’t put this fairy tale land together again. As I walked toward home, I spied with my eyes the moon in an open space between the houses.

A bright night sky. Shadows below.

I wonder if I might be becoming a little semi-nocturnal, myself. But I won’t follow a wild skunk all night long or too closely. I like to drink my water cold from the refrigerator too much to go that skunk’s way in the universe. But what if we go a little too far with the amber lights and the cars? A little more wildness might be a good thing.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Bench note



The fountain is burbling.
I am thinking immaterial thoughts.




Without you, my joy remains intangible.


















And so I have left unspoken words
unattached to the underside of this 
park bench -




















just in case you sit here one day
and the fountain is burbling.